Every once in a while, a celebrity profile comes along that's not all sunshine, fluff, and "I feel great. My life is incredible!"—one that actually tells you something you want to know about a famous person. Right now, that story is in Interview magazine. For its new issue (on newsstands January 20) the mag sought out seriously smoky-cool Lauren Hutton to sit down with our favorite wild child LiLo. The two talk about everything: Lindsay's bad partying days, her unpleasant home life, how she's picking up the pieces now, and how, even though she has basically busted her professional life, the young actress wouldn't change a thing.On surviving in Hollywood:
"You know what's hard? I want to give back. I want to do all the things that will make me feel fulfilled. But whenever I do those things, people think it's a press stunt or something. Because [the paparazzi] do find me, and there's really no way of hiding from that. And the second that you complain about it, they say, 'Well, this is what you wanted, so this is what you're going to get.'"
"Heath Ledger once said to me '[This business] is build you up to knock you down, and that's all it is. And you just have to see if you can stand through it.'"
What she thinks about her reputation:
"Everyone has such a misconception of who I am because of all the things that get said about me. I'd love to be able to have a positive effect on someone's life...it's extraordinary...but now all the other sh*t has ruined it."
About her drug and alcohol abuse...
"I didn't even try everything. I was too afraid. And maybe it was just because I'd seen someone else in my family do it—not my mother. But, I don't know, it really . . . It sucks."
The issues in her current career:
"What hurts me the most is I work just as hard as other actresses my age, like Scarlett Johansson, but I don't get the opportunities that they get because people are so distracted by the mess that I created in my life."
On her family life:
"I grew up really fast because I was in a home where I had to...but I've always been a family girl."
